still in the bathroom

August 24, 2016 About four months and maybe twelve days ago, I tried to kill myself. By now, everyone’s brushed it under the rug and it’s as if it never happened but four months and about twelve days ago, everyone cared. They got word that I was in the hospital from trying to overdose and they…

unknown.

i need to feel cut my skin open and let it  flow let it flow let the feeling of release engulf you let it cradle you with it’s dark lullaby

Raw

I hate you cause you’re not good enough And you’re always lost in though I hate you cause you’re careless and you’re always giving up I hate you because you let you  their opinions influence your thoughts I hate you because you don’t have the courage to speak up I hate you cause you’re lazy…

3:17 am

And she never understood why he always chose to stay. She racked her brain, trying to come up with every possible reason why he should bail but still, he stayed.  She told him all her flaws, everything that made her seem like the worst person to ever exist  But still, he stayed.  She cursed him…

It gets lonely here in my head. 

Don’t get your hopes up, sweetie. Hoping is nothing more than dreaming. 

80416

I just want to sleep That’s what I tell myself when I’m tired of existing  When the heaviness on my chest returns And I can’t find the energy to get out of bed  It’s numbing

“Somewhere Near”- Introduction

An excerpt from a story I’m still working on titled, “Somewhere Near”. It’s still a dire work in progress.   “You look so cold,” I heard him whisper. I smiled, I didn’t have the strength to tell him how warm I felt.  I felt the sun’s rays caressing me with its heat. The warmer I…

Fog

Early morning, late nights nearing dawn An Eden in the midst of chaos When clouds descend to rest I take comfort in that dead of silence When Mother Nature is too tired to cry It all seems so clear The world undisturbed by the effervescence of man Free from the wailings and pains of this…